All i do is Miss you....

I'm beginning to understand why people get 'boring' sometimes....always lost in thoughts. Why butterflies in the stomach 'used to be' that feeling you knew, why it gets harder as time flies by. It was a strange, startling discovery when a song played in the background yesterday - Romeo and Juliet by Dire straits. One of my favorites.. Ive been humming it ever since.

I'm a music person - I had a song for every mood - mellow, happy, sad, sad-sad, happy-sad, melancholy, in love, aloof, spaced out.... I had one playing in my mind everyday and that song defined my mood. I remember yesterday that "Bittersweet symphony" was the song in my mind.I went about the last to last week feeling randomly disjoint and pieced apart. This other time Boulevard of broken dreams was playing on my mind and I had a nasty few days since it reminded me of a friend i was missing a lot... And it was the song for my mood that time. And then Hungry eyes was the song we all friends  danced to once...

Today on my way to work, I realized how the music in my life has been replaced. Slowly, without realizing the transformation I was talking to myself each day - debating the outcome of my day, the code I am supposed to make, that conversation I had last night, the emails I need to reply to, where my relationship is going, what I m going to write in my resume application... its all getting thought without a background score in place.

It was after that I hooked up my laptop and played back some of my favorite music - Mark Knofler, Coldplay, maroon 5, Floyd , West life... its safe to say that the state I m in currently could be called "on a trip" or some other such vaguely intense definition "missing someone".

Each song hides moments, memories - nestled in the notes, the lyrics. Its like Mark Knofler said "All i do is miss you - through the bars of a rhyme". I've hidden so many stolen moments, hugs,glances, rides, tears, fears in the folds of so many songs... and discovering them sometimes by accident is just a delicious tingle - a feeling so infinite, of being able to travel time and 'relive'.

Moments have a way of shrinking when put into words - but they magnify when romanced with music. making me smile out of nothing at all.These songs sometime have the immense strength to make me cheer up out of nothing..

I am listening to "You sang to me" by Marc Anthony right now..it has a special place in my life......love this song....